I know that I often struggle with what I believe in as far as religion is concerned. But the one thing that I can never deny is that there is a God.
One of my very best of friends (Adrian) was in a car accident yesterday. She is stable yet still in the ICU. Apparently if she had been driving a newer car... she would not have made it. And I would never be able to get over that, never. Just like Tyler. But because I do believe that there is a God somewhere, somehow, I know that he/she has a reason for her to continue on in this life and I am so, so grateful.
I have been numb, depressed and dazed all day. I just want so badly to be there for my sweet Adrian. But she lives in Arizona and neither of us can afford the trip. Especially not now. But somehow I keep going back to being thankful that she is alive. I miss her. I wish that I could be there to support her. Thankfully she has a wonderful family that will be there for her.
This old beast saved her life.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I'm still trying to decide which TWO pictures to turn in next Tuesday. I have realized that through this assignment that portraits don't have to be cheesy or typical. This makes me feel excited to research portrait photography.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
The years go on and so do I. But the one person that never leaves that little place in my heart is Tyler. I wonder about who he would be today. Six years ago he left but somehow he is here in the air more than he was that last year. I miss him still. I will never stop missing him. Never stop missing that beautiful smile.
It's strange, the feeling of missing because like I said, he is here. He is in the air, in the golden leaves, the winter mist, the rolling clouds on great mountain tops. He is in Sky and in Solee. He lives on. This makes me feel happy and hopeful.
Tyler Stillwell Gray you are loved.
And just one more thing, I am so grateful for my husband Eric. He loves me completely, this includes the pieces of me that contain my love for Tyler. I am so very lucky to have such a wonderful man in my life.
The first one is inspired by a photo of Barbara Streisand wearing a lamp shade. Hayley is awesome for letting me do that! The second one almost looks like a bridal to me. Anyway, it's been a fun assignment!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Friday, November 05, 2010
So the first 2 photos are part of my "Color of Light" assignment. The last one is part of a group assignment that I am working on. I'll be done with this semester soon and then I can actually start editing my pics from Moab.