Today I did my very first photo shoot!

Eric's sister Katie asked me to take pics of her and her family. She is due in two weeks! I had lots of fun. Elijah wouldn't sit still but I think I still got some pretty cute pictures with him. I am definitely not a conventional portrait photographer. I cant wait to start school and master my skills. :) 

This is just a preview. 

Look! Elijah is the son in the sun. 

My Shutterfly profile and pics from yesterday when my brother Chris and his wife came for a visit. 

I just want to say....

I love Eric very, very, very much.

Spring in Utah

Body image stuff

For as long as I can remember I have had issues with my body. I have hated my body. I have been jealous of my sisters, friends and anyone that was skinnier than me. And its a constant struggle for me to accept my body as it is. 

Its hard. One day I can feel happy and accepting of my body. Other days I cant even look at myself in the mirror. I hate this struggle. It seems so pointless and petty. 

Lately, I have been very depressed and my self esteem has plummeted. I am getting older and its harder to take care of my body. I live with my young, beautiful sister who everyone adores. And I weight more now than I EVER have before. I think that says a lot considering...

Anyway, today I saw something completely unexpected and it knocked me off my feet. I was looking in the new issue of Glamour magazine and I saw a REAL, beautiful, curvy and healthy woman modeling swimsuits of all things. It was so shocking. But something wonderful happened. It made me feel good about myself. It made me want to just be healthy and happy. And for now it has curbed my desire to be rail thin like every other model, actress or even real life girl. Imagine what the world would be like if this was more of a normal occurrence. 

Here is a picture from the spread. She is beautiful.