I love having a garden. It makes me happy.

For love of the garden

I love having a garden. It has gotten so big. Its actually about five times bigger than that last picture. It's so weird. Eric and I will both stand outside and just look at it. We are already planning our set up for next year. This was our first try and it's current setup is kind of off. Its a learning process though. And I think that we have done pretty good so far. Next year our garden will be better.

PS make sure to click on the top picture of the dragonfly. It is so pretty. You can really see it's detail in the larger format.

Why is it that anyone with a fancy camera is suddenly considered a "really good photographer"? I hate to sound like a brat but I know SOOOOOooooo, many people that walk around calling themselves photographers because of the huge piece of equipment they have dangling from their neck. When in reality anyone can take the pictures they take and most people do!

True talent is so hard to find. And when you see something beautiful and extraordinary you feel it down to your bones. I also know photographers like this. And they amaze and impress me to no end. As a matter of fact I envy them.

Anyway, just something that has been on my mind lately. Oh, and just as a side note I am too much of a coward to really do anything about any talent that I might have. So who am I to complain anyway?

You Are Mulan!

Strong and spirited. You're no one's girly girl; actually you are very determined person with a strong sense of self. Never let go of that! The only thing that equals your sense of self is your family, but the traditions of society can always be bent to protect something or someone you love.

Which Disney Princess Are You?


Honestly, I took the quiz a couple of times because in almost every question there were always two answers that I wanted to choose. So I guess I'm a little bit of both.


You Are Pocahantas!

Free-spirited and wise. You have a strong passionate spirit that touches and changes all who know you. The wisdom and common sense that you have is really what guides you through life. Even so, you also have a very playful side that loves adventure and excitement.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

I'm just exhausted.

I'm a crybaby. I get it from my mom. And truth be told I love her for it! When I saw this first video a while ago I cried. I cry every time that I see it. I think that it's beautiful. It reminds me that I have an amazing mother and Lee that would have done the same thing for me time and time again. They have done the same thing time and time again.







PS I searched and searched for the videos on the web. And when I found them I showed them to Eric and he cried too. This is one reason why I love him.

Last night was fun. Eric and I went for a late night bike ride. We lit some fireworks. We camped out on our back porch. We drank a little too much. We attempted to watch a movie outside but I passed out before it finished. Anyway, it was so much fun. We are going to do it again tonight.

I feel better today.

There is a slight chance that I may in fact have a nervous, emotional, breakdown very, very soon.

I am NOT a product of my environment. No, no, no! I came from a shitty place on one side and a good place on the other. But I am neither good nor bad. I am me. I get to choose my own decisions and follow through... or not.

However, I know that some of us in this family choose to think that they are who they are because of where they/we came from. They are idiots for thinking so. Life can affect us in many ways but ultimately it is US who gets to decide if what has happened will mold who we are or just be a bump in the road.

I love my family very much. I love my siblings like there is no tomorrow. But sometimes I would love to smack the shit out of, no, smack some sense into them. Yes, we love who love. We love how we love. But having a boyfriend/girlfriend/fiance/husband/wife is not all there is to life. And living your life around someone else is foolish because in the end.... well if you live your life for someone else no one will live your life for YOU. The life that is meant to be yours will pass you by.

Anyway, I am very upset right now. Trust me that is an understatement. And now I am choosing to get drunk and trying to forget all this shit for just a little while.

PS we havent seen the black widow spider since I posted that picture of it. Tragic.